just the plain old me.

Verse 1)
The little kid who wanted to receive compliments everyday, forever
Though he had left behind the records that he once spent nights troubling over
Ashamed, he hid the hand that was holding the pen
The night manipulated by the boy’s shy confession
carefully sent a knock and set foot in the room of the heart that was locked up alone and tightly closed
The night when suddenly stars whispered to him, if you say you won’t be able to handle it, just don’t start it in the first place
The constant repetition of writing then erasing lyrics
The persistent fate, the fierce life, how unfortunate
The night when stress, paranoia, lack of love, insomnia heard his unsaid words
The expectation growing in proportion to popularity
I’m afraid that I might forget. The future is so unseen to me
I don’t care for bling bling cars, beautiful women, money and fame
Hook)
I said life is about living without giving a hoot, but I don’t know why I’m so obsessed though I’m leaving
My living today, tomorrow is just like the short-lived candle light flickering in the wind
I said life is about things that come once then be gone, but I don’t know why I’m so obsessed by things that was mine
The life that doesn’t belong to me is a springtime fantasy, like a mirage that vanishes when you wake up
More than things I’ve lost, there are still many things I will lose, so earnestly I wish for my remaining time to pass slowly
More than things I will get, there are many things I will throw away, so one by one I wish for my remaining greed to vanish
I’m wishing just too easily, ain’t I? While I just don’t believe in the existence of gods. I’m confessing too easily, ain’t I? While I protect myself more than I do you
My selfish wish. If it’s okay even in this country, if my wish can be heard, please give me time
Verse 2)
The threshold I’ve made is so high I struggle too hard to pass it
All day I keep wrestling with the weak spot inside of me that is scared of tripping then falling
For what and for who am I using up all my sweat, my body and my heart?
Again I ask myself where I am going, but there’s no reply. What’s left is traces of agony
All in sweat, every morning I pray to Him. Today I want to write out my heart with happiness
Staying up every night, with vague eyes my right hand shivers while holding a pen
I want to hide my naked feelings standing all by myself in this world. I want to hide my heart
All the time I’ve been telling myself that I will do fine, that can do it. That again this time, I will make it
Hook)
I said life is about living without giving a hoot, but I don’t know why I’m so obsessed though I’m leaving
My living today, tomorrow is just like the short-lived candle light flickering in the wind
I said life is about things that come once then be gone, but I don’t know why I’m so obsessed by things that was mine
The life that doesn’t belong to me is a springtime fantasy, like a mirage that vanishes when you wake up
More than things I’ve lost, there are still many things I will lose, so earnestly I wish for my remaining time to pass slowly
More than things I will get, there are many things I will throw away, so one by one I wish for my remaining greed to vanish
I’m wishing just too easily, ain’t I? While I just don’t believe in the existence of gods. I’m confessing too easily, ain’t I? While I protect myself more than I do you
My selfish wish. If it’s okay even in this country, if my wish can be heard, please give me time
Outro)
I’m making my vow just too easily, ain’t I? While I just don’t believe in the existence of gods
I’m confessing too easily, ain’t I? While I protect myself more than I do you
A selfish person. The venomous person who doesn’t care a fig about others’ wound, it’s just me
Such a person who I am, for whom is he singing?
Such a person who I am, whose wound and hurt can he heal?
Putting an end to my last journey seeking for someone to heal the wound, it’s just me