just the plain old me.

first i lost my file.
now my ipod songs are all gone!
vanished from my ipod, dangit!
whywhywhy did i have to lose my file on monday?
it really seems like i didn't do my homework during the holidays and now come and act like some poor cold innocent cat losing her most precious file (and everything that's inside it).
f that right?!
i'm probably the most loserish person on earth
&a badbadbad rotten delinquent in school to the teachers.
my holidays might as well be deemed UNCONSTRUCTIVE and UNPRODUCTIVE.
it's as though i've been slacking throughout the holidays and getting no shit done.
last wed-fri was experiential learning, so lessons started proper on monday.
and i had to oh-so-happily lose my file on monday.
it's so dangdangdang coincidential.
and i'm like some irritating idiot, 动不动 go general office ask whether my file has been found or not.
the people there might think i'm some mental anti-social loner that has nothing better to do than to seek their attention at least twice a day.
#$%^&*$#^%
some of you may think, "hey, how can you lose your faith right now? don't worry, you'll find your file ultimately."
and i can tell you there's no hope already.
i'm not being pessimistic, it's just...
if someone finds my file, what on earth will take her so long to merely give it to the lost and found?
the practical and most likely thing is, my file has been thrown away by one of the stupid grouchy cleaners OR it has been stolen by someone and never to be seen again.
the probability of the latter is quite high.
anyone smart enough would want to keep the valuable notes of a student from class 3E3.
they think that if they read my notes, they'd get as smart as i am or smth like that.
TMD.
here comes that lump in my throat for the umpteenth time.

my suayest period of living on this horrible earth.
what's next?
oh right, debate.
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