just the plain old me.

只因为我不想打扰 只因为怕你解释不了
只因为现在你的眼睛里
她比我还重要
我只好假装我看不到 看不到你和她在对街拥抱
你的快乐 我可以感受得到
这样的见面方式对谁都好 我只好假装我听不到
听不到别人口中的她好不好
再不想问 也不想被通知到 反正你的世界我管不了
若不想问 若不想被通知到 就把祝福 留在街角

friday's a short school day. headed for chem supp at 1340. cheekuan, teoyang, marcus and sherman were playing catching like some pri sch kids. meixuan was like, "没有童年啊。" LOLLL. sad case siol; deprived childhood. we learnt how to balance equation. fun siol! meixuan also agreed that it wasn't anywhere near hard. home-d with cheekuan and xiner. we bubbletea-d first and i bought vanilla blended ice. cool, i shall try jelly instead of pearls th next time i drink vanilla. cheekuan took orange colour straw and xiner took purple colour straw. i told them that orange is international lesbian colour and purple's international gay colour, but ironically, both of them are my topmost favourite colour. cheekuan was like, "but orange is nice what. green also not bad." AHAH, &green is my third favourite colour! cheekuan and i took 57. zet boarded th bus at th bus-stop behind gyss. all 3 of us alighted at peichun's bus-stop. home-dddd(:

cell group yesterday was awesome (although i was friggin late cuz i overslept)! we spent the whole night worshipping God without any agenda. we just plainly wanted to linger in His presence and to go right back into the heart of worship. i wanted to be prayed for and after wenhui prayed for me, i was touched to tears, by Him. there was no time for preaching so wenhui told us a general summary of th sermon she prepared. then, we got our new job descriptions. i am in "The Munchies Team" together with janice and melvin chiang. we are supposed to prepare food before cell group meetings so as to serve them as fellowship refreshments. we're also supposed to sms wenhui (every thursday, before 10pm) what food we have decided on. some people have 3 roles whereas i only have one. stayed a while for fellowship before going home.

saw mrs teo chye lian while grocery-shopping at hdb hub's fairprice. lynnette and i were searching for edible toothpaste and we found kodomo's toothpaste with a variety of flavours. contemplating whether it's edible or not, i decided to confirm with the SA and she attitude-d me! _l_ the second time we went back, lynnette and i were browsing through hand soaps. that very same sa approached us and recommended us some shit shampoo that prolly will add to her incentive if we buy it, i (being very nice of course,) DAO-ed her. (: an eye for an eye (以牙还牙).

i missed pre-service prayer meeting today! D: thanks to delayed grocery-shopping. reached church at five. guest pastor, dr ulf ekman, preached about fear. he's a joker but he was quite draggy, causing us to end service late. informed wenhui i gtg. she noticed i always never fellowship and did not allow me to go off until i said i'll fellowship with them on alternate services. :l

it's not that i don't like connecting with you guys, but i want to beat my curfew and not cause my parents to worry for me. it's dangerous for a helpless girl to go home by herself late at night *HINTHINT* and moreover, my father cooks dinner. how would you feel if both your children doesn't come home to eat with you? at least one come home the hurt not so much right? i like my father's dishes (although it's cooked by my maid. but that's not th point) and homecooked food is nutritious. if you eat outside, the dishes may be unclean (causing you to have a tummyache or diarrhoea). outside food also contain preservatives and stuffs to make the food tastier, look more attractive and last longer; which is veryveryvery unhealthy. wenhui suggested my father heat up the food when i come home (which btw will be about 11pm+ after f/s). hello? that will be like super late supper? and supper makes you fat because you don't use much energy at night right? unless you tell me sleeping is like exercising. -_- so that means i have to eat if i fellowship. apart from dirty and unhealthy outside food (as mentioned above), i dont want to spend money on expensive food! we normally go to expo foyer 1 or changi airport for dinner, so is food there expensive or what? obviously YES. well even if it's not expensive, i still don't feel good paying for food. *HINTHINT* again. i don't see why must we fellowship so late at night. it's not like nobody has a curfew to catch and everybody is over 18 or smth. service is already scheduled half an hour later since febuary and that means late f/s-ing and even later home-ing. can't we meet up like before service or smth? i know before svc is like neither lunch nor dinner time but who says f/s-ing must be eating? we can simply gather and talk and do stuffs together what. if you dont like the idea of it, what about meeting up on weekdays or smth? i mean it's not impossible yeh? haah whatever, it's not like ranting here's gonna help in th situation anw.

我只好假装我看不到，听不到；反正你的世界我管不了。