just the plain old me.

He will not always accuse, nor will he harbor his anger forever; he does not treat us as our sins deserve or repay us according to our iniquities. for as high as the heavens are above the earth, so great is his love for those who fear him; as far as the east is from the west, so far has he removed our transgressions from us. as a father has compassion on his children, so the LORD has compassion on those who fear him; for he knows how we are formed, he remembers that we are dust. as for man, his days are like grass, he flourishes like a flower of the field; the wind blows over it and it is gone, and its place remembers it no more. but from everlasting to everlasting the LORD's love is with those who fear him, and his righteousness with those who fear him, and his righteousness with their children's children- with those who keep his convenant and remembers to obey his precepts. (Psalm 103:9-18.) this was what i read recently. super meaningful that i have to post it up. (don't mind me please. Dx) the most popular book in the whole wide world is none other than the Bible, which have been translated in many many different languages worldwide. praise the Lord.


o611; went to meet iris at bishan control station. she reached more or less on time. i helped her with her bag of stuffs, and we went up to comics connection cos she wanted to buy poker cards. we were choosing what characters to be on the cards, and i kept insisting on picking the lollipop one! there was no fahrenheit cards, only got wuzun himself. she ended up buying some anime poker cards. we then went to bus inter and waited for 54. we said lame and cold jokes while sitting down. i told her the one mr how (mr jason's new name, don't ask me why) told the band. boarded 54 and we kope-d some of my seaweed chickens. kimberly called me to jio me out but sadly, i have this party all day so too bad. spotted whitley secondary first and we alighted at the stop after. waited for hweehong for 891248 hours. then we decided to go without her when we saw her walking at the opposite side. screamed her name but she kept walking. waited til she crossed the overhead bridge and iris told her nadira's waiting for her. we went to tinghao's condo first to put our stuffs down, then hweehong, iris and i went out again. first, we went to fetch nadira from a very faraway bus-stop. on the way there, hweehong heard her brother shouting from her flat, and LMAO, he was cute! LOL. he kept insisting that his sister forgotten to bring her aluminium foil. hweehong had to ignore him eventually to end the conversation (mind joo, it's shouting across a flat). hweehong, iris, nadira and i went to Shop&Save after that to buy drinks and stuffs. then we went to a food court to buy muffins. we settled down at a table near the smoking area while hweehong queued for the muffins. i said smth like "we must sit like this when in such a place." as i rested my right leg on the seat next to me. iris dared me to carry on doing it and i picked up the dare. she even took a picture of me LOL. she also sat like a trishawman not long after and she said "we must sit like typical singaporeans." LOOL, good one! nadira offered somasa to us. it was nice but cold and uncrispy. hweehong finally had her muffins ordered and went to buy sugar cane. when she offered me to drink, the packet dropped to the floor and burst. zomg. D: i held the straw and hweehong thought i have already gripped the strings and therefore let go. anw, sorry if it's my fault. then iris went to buy hokkien mee and i koped a prawn, noodles and those fried onions for garnishing. hweehong bought sugar cane juice again, but this time in a glass mug. i was careful to make sure it won't, you know, screw up on the floor again lol. thanks hweehong, for being so usually generous and forgiving. :D we all walked back to tinghao's place (which was a long way away), each one carrying something. i sang p&w randomly and iris joined in. :D reached and we all settled down to enjoy drinks and the chocolate muffins hweehong bought. hweehong suddenly fed me with a drink and it slobbered down my chin wtf LOL! she purposely luh, tilted the cup too low. rinsed my mouth. realised it was red wine and it's nice stuff ok! everyone was dying to have my barcardi opened and tinghao, left with no choice, went up to find a bottle-opener in hope. he came down with it (yay!) and opened the bottle. in less than 5 minutes, the 275ml of wine was gone! LOL, power right? then i wanted to drink some more of the red wine and someone said smth like it was hers and slammed the lid down? er, even if it was yours (which clearly it wasnt!! it belonged to tinghao pl0x!), this is potluck isnt it? you drank my breezer and why can't i drink "your" red wine? *rolls eyes 1895682375times* (LOL, makes me look like a lunatic.) k anw, i wasn't anywhere drunk so thank God. actually i dunno how it feels like to be drunk. should be dead cool! :D natalie and i was waddling in the shallow pool when i tugged her and she tumbled in! LOLOL! so she's the lucky one to get wet first! :D &thanks to me of course. she took revenge and i got totally wet too! D: natalie and i then tried pushing people into the shallow pool LOL. hweehong is dead strong! i scratched my hand on the wall in the struggle to push her into the pool. D: most of them went to change into their swimming costumes while natalie, iris, kevin and i went to the jacuzzi first. ew, for the first time, clorine smelled! k anw, the rest of them joined us. we went down again to the deep pool and played around. i was feeling pissed and left out. kept stoning at the edge of the pool. then we went up thanks to the fucked up security guard. ate beehoon and went down again. natalie taught me how to swim PROPERLY! LOL, i'm so pathetic. i can't breathe while freestyle-ing. i need proper training but natalie said it was tough. i can't even thread water pls. after much explaining and demostrating, i still can't get a shit right. sorry babe. D: i suddenly pulled a muscle/sprained my right calf in the water. natalie and i decided to change into dry clothes, which means we won't be swimming anymore. what's the point of reminding you about 4 times to reserve clothes (top and bottom duh) for me when you just give priority to your closer friends? what's the 'first come first serve' basis for? well anw, thanks for the top at least. it's nice, btw! :D the whole process in the toilet was a long and elaborative one! but i shall skip the details because.. ya, you'll know when you read on. xD we went into cubicles and started drying our wet clothes with tissue. apparently it din't work. so natalie asked me to pass her my fbts and she'll dry it for me. then i had an idea that the person inside the cubicle will entrust her clothes to the one outside to blowdry for her. but we still locked the door for security lol. at last i went out to dry my bra myself (which means.. ya). then while i was drying my fbts, someone tried to come in. i hurriedly opened the door. phew, it was hweehong and iris. natalie went out to get nadira's shirt for me while i waited in the cubicle. we blowdried our slippers too and got out. the rest started barbecuing without us. took some pictures and natalie and i decided to camwhore in the toilet. in the midst of camwhoring, the most absurb thing happened!! for you guys, it's the most exciting bah, LOL! a woman in her 40s came out of the cubicle totally naked! LOLOL. i guess natalie saw and quickly went out of the toilet. i was slower cos i hadta take my camera and my comb. when outside, natalie blurted that she saw everything. me? i just saw the boobs. this' the first time i saw an outsiders' boobs ok! T_T my first time; 我的第一次 okay! T_T LOL i make it sound so wrong. we went back to the BBQ grounds and took more pictures; pictures of them barbecuing, pictures of the couple! then natalie remembered she left her handphone in the toilet, we chionged to go take. then i realised my shirt is hanging in the shower cubicle. i was alone with that woman for a period. ew, i daren't even take a glimpse at her. but out of the corner of my eye, i could see that she was a bit uneasy. we camwhored outside the tower and decided to go into the gym. it was quite sian so we camwhored instead. we went back to the BBQ ground again and we climbed the rope bridge at the playground. went back to the toilet because natalie wanted to pee. i camwhored myself a bit. the woman emerged from a shower cubicle and we both zao at the sight of her LOL! went back and helped out with the barbecue. someone was so totally dint give me face, just shunned me away like some unwanted fly. ok fine. so i just sat and drank root beer. D: when night fell, natalie, iris, nadira and i sat around a table and chatted. then we went to help barbecue (despite that person treating me like that a while ago). went back to the table and hweehong kept giving natalie eat. weinee was actually sitting with us and i casually remarked that she looked like Mother Teresa with that towel around her head. then she said "what about liddat?" as she put another towel over her body. i said "and now you look like Mona Lisa." lol and iris found what i said so funny, she got high over it. we saw a bat flying around the pool and weinee thought that the bat was a moth LOL! then natalie imitated weinee and said that the towel nadira was using was a tissue paper LMAO! and a small boy running in yellow shirt and black shorts was a cheetah ROFL! hweehong then asked iris and then nadira what they want to eat. haiz. i had to go to the pit and ask for fish. ): felt like a... nvm. natalie was pissed. idiot sia the person who pissed natalie off, never get the facts right; biased! natalie and i went to barbeque marshmellows. we camwhored with the sticks of white dessert. we went home soon, at 8:20pm. at the bus-stop, we talked about somebody. she is super too much loh! i hated her right from the start alr, it's just so hard to get along with that particular person. 54-ed to j8 bus-stop and waited unusually long for 88. nearly missed my bus-stop! LOLOL. i guess i was tired. home-d. bathed.

tio pumped for ankle socks. it's time you guys know how to manage your time ok! it's supposed to end at 1:30pm but it was dragged to nearly 2:30pm. it's one hour times the number of people present, geddit? damn, if you want to chide us, check our attire, but you jolly well know the time is not on YOUR side, do it the next practice lah! like what sir said, more and more members will disappear thanks to unaccurate and delaying dismissals. how can you blame us when it's those atas people (underlying meaning) who caused the trouble? played 恋爱-ing for the first time today! :D but i think the song sounds nicer with guitar. :DD

my calf still hurts. it feels like the next day after running 2.4km. i walk a bit limp. D:

pictures soon!

daphanie called just now. i joined facebook because of her. :D she told me of the time when they got food poisoning from eating callista's overnight lukewarm (err, according to melvin lim) fried rice. LOL funny, bodoh. tmr's holiday coz of deepavali. maybe i'll be going to delvina's birthday party at pasir ris. see first loh.

janice called. got pissed for no apparent reason. ok, may be there is a reason; the reason is i'm sensitive and i think too much. i thought that she was being sarcastic and suaning me. i shall expose my deepest darkest secret now. please read carefully and do not miss out any word. you might want to reread to confirm what you will be reading in one millisec: i have not changed one bit! yes, that's the secret. because many of you thought i have changed for the better alr, but the truth is, i never did. i'm still as shitty, as complainsive (shut up, i know there's no such word), as pissed off, as attitude-problemy (stfu), as rotten as before. ok if you still insist i have changed, then i have reverted to my old self already. it's no use. i should isolate myself from everyone to save them from troubles and hurts. i hate to be like this.. change me, O Lord.

hands that hold the heavens, hold my heart tonight. words of life eternal, heal my broken soul. love pierce through my darkness, glorious light.