just the plain old me.

met joy and kimberly at tpy mrt. sorry i was late. joy looked a bit different, with her tan and hair down. in the train, joy told me about her obs camp. waited for 17 and we spotted melvin, timothy and ivan. sat with them. walao somebody so act cute pls. 好恶心喔！也许是要"谁"的注意力。 k nvm. alighted and saw baojuan. usual sitting spot at the void deck again. joy began to talk about obs and daphanie, who was in obs too, joined in. i would never go to obs even given the foc chance. guess why? duh, i would get pissed at everything (the canned food, the mosquito bites, the 6 hours trekking, the 4.5h of kayaking, and everything lah) and therefore, i would give attitude to everybody and that is just the beginning. i would cry 24/7 in the camp and scream for my mummy (LOL!) etc... but if i would to go, it would be because of the shirt! :D super nice lah. and it's a person's glory and honour to be able to complete obs camp k! idk why, but when i see someone wearing obs tee, i would idk.. have a sense of respect for that person and think that the person is sporty and tough. ok cool. where was i?? oh ya, then we went up for cgm. gave delvina her present. she say i at her party bin cao cao LOL. idk was it the tap water joy refilled my waterbottle with or the chocolate snack baojuan offered me that caused me to ZAOSIAAA~ during p&w! LOL. dammit. ok and then in the darkness, i can't see the songsheet and therefore i just sang in tongues. prayer meeting - i dint even pray pls! LOL. i'm so pathetic pls, i never prayed in front of the whole cell group during cgpm before and i havent shared my first testimony! asdfghjkl. then wenhui talked about how we can share our problems to the cell group but not to dwell on it and pull the atmosphere down, causing people to become emo like us. i got a feeling it's baojuan cos it all fits. wenhui talked about how we should resolve issues and misunderstandings amoungst our cell group and not to talk bad/gossip about the people we don't like or had a quarrel with. at first i thought it was me lah. cos i dont like melvin chiang. really leh. during svc debrief, he purposely like to stand beside wenhui and make funny faces, trying to distract us to looking at him instead of our cell group leader. *rolls eyes* disrespectful? o: then he like to say whatever he feels just like that, without thinking for a moment whether he would hurt/insult the person or not. he also like to despise baojuan and scold her for nothing, that's what i especially don't like him about! he always act gangster and shout loudly to seek attention. haiz. nvmnvm, forgive and forget! :D like what wenhui say, we can talk negative but at the end of the day, finish with a positive sentence. ya, but actually it's not, i guess. cos she say she want to talk to those people, and she dint ask me to stay back. lastly she talked about how to pray. like don't keep "Dear Lord" and "Father Lord" cuz sounds like kou tou cai... *stares at davin* LOL. and we must continue to pray in tongues to maintain the atmosphere and our spirits. then we must say "Yes" and "Amen" to agree with the person prayer cos the place of agreement is the place of power. Amen! lololl. then the person praying must pray louder and don't beat around the bush but come straight to the point. what wenhui wants is a short and sweet prayer. so next time i pray one sentence can liao LOL, and that would be the main point. then offering.. i gave all my coins. cgm ended, hurray! lolol. left with joy, kimberly, lena, baojuan, timothy, davin and harvey. raining siolll! kimberly screamed as she chua tio-ed by a running cat! LOLOL. haiya, baojuan talked to me about what wenhui said and she had a hunch wenhui was referring to her at the bus-stop. ya, so i advise her to from now on, start being positive and don't keep dwelling on her problems luh. i asked her to also make peace with davin and ivan. bus-ed to inter. the rest left and joy, davin and i stayed back awhile to try and buy black sesame paste, but both dessert stalls bo liao. both of them were afraid it would be very late when i reach home so davin went to take bus while joy and i went the other way. at the bus-stop and in the bus, we talked a lot again. we missed the stop cos it was raining and everything through the window was a blur. we alighted the next stop and i walked to 238 bus-stop. called daddy to pick me up. he took like forever. 4 buses zoomed past and zomg, i think i saw the hiongest gangster ever! this particular guy had golden-orange dyed hair, was wearing a hat and had tattoos all over his neck, arms and hands. his extended ear piercing was the power!!~ i swear i could put my whole hand through his earhole, wtf! overall, he looked like the buddha! LOLOL. ok srsly, his ears were bigger and flabbier than the buddhist god. wtf it looked gross la. i wonder how long he needed to enlarge until like that sial. to imagine better, the guy's white "stud" alone is as big as his ear. k anw, i received a call from my father, he said he's opposite; his voice sounded funny. ran opposite and found him. drove back home. dad said he actually beer-d and was not suppose to drive. oh wells, it's just a short distance. home-d.

i realised i just came into city harvest for only 7 months and the first time i went was during easter, 07april: http://knsyouluh.blogspot.com/2007/04/god.html. seeing the difference of opinion i have for Him in april and in november, i realised i have transformed.

look, i don't want to blame anybody for my plight, for my emo personality. i have already been like this since young. i won't be pulled down by anyone nor will i pull anyone down.

mum and dad brought food back home.

mum: i want that duck skin!
sheryl: nonono.
mum: it's no good for health, you know!
sheryl: ya that's why i am willing to sacrifice and risk bad health.
mum: ...
sheryl: let me be fillial for once can???
LOLOL.

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expo-ed with lynnette and her two cg friends, karen and joseph. foyer3-ed like super early. bought root beer and i put one lime mint sweet inside. nothing much, only the fizzing of the sweet. next time must buy diet coke, add big balls of mentos mint and shakeshakeshake to cause explosion! >:D future terrorist!! LOLOLOOL. i want to join strikeforce ministry. see first bah. practice's every sunday siol. but kangwei say not strict and not taxing! svc with dr. ulf ekman and carola haggkvist. dr. ulf ekman was a funny bubbly man. he liked to jump when he shouts hallelujah. but he's long-winded and is the main cause of the prolonged service. and just yesterday wenhui wanted short and sweet prayers, looks like not all preachers agree with that. carola haggkvist spoke with an accent but the accent totally disappears when she sings. she won the talentime in 1991, and the evidence is her voice! the band and chior performed a piece called "Hallelujah Chorus" (i think) and it was nice. everything was perfect; the pitch, the tempo.. it was awesome. but it totally sounded like a hymn and i felt like i was in a catholic church attending mass LOL. pastor kong was so kewlxzxz to ask carola to sing songs after songs and that caused svc to end at almost 9pm. wow, _l_. debrief was adding fuel into fire! wenhui took so long to return. three people's birthday. they shared their wishes and we prayed for them. finally, i quickly told wenhui i gtg. mrt-ed to tpy. 235-ed home. was nearly 10:30pm when i reached my house. if church keep causing me to come home so late, it's sooner or later news that my parents (mother, most probably) would forbid me from going to church.

heal my heart and make it clean.
open up my eyes to the things unseen.
show me how to love like You have loved me.
break my heart for what breaks Yours.
everything i am for Your kingdom's cause.
as i walk from earth into eternity.