just the plain old me.

my father grounded me from the computer for two whole days! just because i got a missed call from him. that's friggin unreasonable k? i could have rebeled but nah..

i kinda forgot what went on and stuff. but band is always on my mind and especially when really bad things happen; i will remember it dear and hard! hahaha, i love finding fault in band. why? cos i get hurt from it. ahh idk how to phrase it but yah. it's not like band is a bed of roses and everything is so nice and pleasent to all the members. no! fat hope! band likes to torture us... and the majors love to add it in... haiz. guess what happened on thursday? it was raining and band released us so friggin late! when i reached the bus-stop, it was 7.15PM already! note that it's WHEN I REACH; it's immediate. i dint purposely wait till it hit 3 then i say. and i didnt exaggerate things k. if hana kimi was still on, i'd go crazy! missing hana kimi for a good half an hour? (i take MORE than 15 minutes to go home and i'm not even exaggerating things-_-) and then some bloody guys have to say so high so high when i'm like beside them and one even want to change place. fuck. you think i want stand near you? knn. treat me like an alien.. for all i care. idk which part of me look like an alien. do i have green skin? no. do i have three eyes? no. do i have feelers/antenas? no. so shut your trap. someone cried, and i guess she was stressed out. everyone is! central judging is like... next tuesday?! we only have 2 more practices. ting shuo this year's judging's superstrict. only chij toa payoh from last year's silver jump to this year's gold. ang moh kio sec is the only band (i think) who got gold with honours! i'm surprised. i mean amk is not a really prestigious school. dint know their band power sei. aiyo. i just hope we can maintain our bronze can liao! zuo ren bu yao tai tan xin... i just dowan get a cop. very diu lian to even talk bout it. haiz. wednesday's commendation, we have to perform. first item sumor T_T quite okay. but there's some squeaking. nobody talked to me bout the performance. :l only yingying. i mean, is the performance rly bad that you have to keep all quiet bout it? tell me how you feel and your comments lah. and bloody band have to take one whole period of warming up (that's so damn diao) in order for us to miss the first period of assembly which is the briefing of MYE! you obviously did that on purpose k?! okay lor.. if i failed my MYE, im so gonna kill youuuuuu. so what if mr mak brief us? pls la. he like stm liddat, cant even rmb everything. and i bet there are details that he missed out. rarrrrrr. dont tell me that band is sooo important that we must even miss briefings on exams! aye is not funfare lor. is exams leh! wait i drop to normal, i suan zhang with you. i bet if exams clash with syf, they'll sure make us go syf instead of exams! thats friggin self-centered okay?! band is not everything! i have my own life to live ok. band is taking so much of my time, i failed my maths test! ALL BECAUSE OF BAND! external locus of control? idc. i'm not lying. everyday practice till 7pm+. eat dinner, bathe. what time is left?! homework.. then sleep. there is not time for revision! what can i do with band? i ask you la. it's just not worth the time and effort and blabla. the percussionists good lah. not all are playing. so all those not playing can friggin slack during syf and get points for it! - get points for DOING NOTHING. FUCK. nvm. relax. its not worth getting all angry bout this stupid thing called band. i just hope they will cut off all the extra practices and leave only mondays and thursdays. there's nothing band never did, i just realised. make us come back on sundays? check. make us go for band at curriculum time? check. make us miss our curfew? check. make us early release from school (next tuesday for syf)? check. what else? i think anything illegal they also will do lor. they say fall in at 2.45pm right? they fell us in at 2.44, and sometimes 2.43 lor! they are not punctual! that time teressa say only after the first name is read out then is considered late. now after diam then they consider late. what the shit la. some more, CCAs are supposed to start at 3.30pm! dont say shit like "got syf what". pls la. people got competitions; friendly matches also not like band so crazy. make so many practices. SIAO. idk how i actually suffered for band. it's a rly rly sad case. HAIZZZZZZ.

let's just say i take band versus choir as an example. no hard feelings. just using choir cos it's in the same catagory. and doing almost the same thing(music), except that choir is singing whereas band's playing. going for usual practices. band have to get all the chairs ready. then get the stands ready. then get the scores ready. then get the instruments ready. that's like so many things and i get all perspiring everytime i go for band. it's because of those things we have to prepare. that's... F- uh nvm. whereas choir.. i dont really know but i know they can skip the instruments part which saves them a lot of work. attendance. band, we have to fall in. choir, recently they also started falling in. but we have to do those commands. they dont need. they take attendance then just go. performance. choir take practically nothing! they have to memorise of course. aye pls. dont say thats hard. i dunno memorise how many songs lyrics alr. we band have to take chairs, scores, stands and instruments! i dont think we are memorising in performances. unless syf la. &in syf, we are supposed to march! if it's outdoor. play and march! hello?! screw yourself if you still think yer in the worst situation. i have psychomotor. so i guess i cant take part in next year's syf. you guys (from other ccas) dont know how fortunate you are to not be in the band. thank your lord k. so quit whining. i'm the one who should whine. haiz.

just now after school went bible study with daphanie. soooooo boring. it was raining heavily. we settled at a coffeeshop at bishan. i keep writing stupid things in the blanks. got some lame, some meaningless, some funny. but im surprised she aint pekchek. of course la. christian what. zz-_- anw, here's some of the crap i wrote: "... and a turning into God, ..." "There will still be sleep in your life." "Read the news daily." "Talk to God in restaurants daily." "Sleep with other believers." "The bungalow is your spiritual home." "... It is called the TV." the underlined words are the fillintheblanks lah. call me lame etcetc.

today science practical. mrs goh saw my book and say cannot put "water solution". LOL. i just copied blindly maa.. dint realised. &anw, i'm not what good in english or whatever. hello? yer talkin bout this dumb retarded sheryl over here??? the experiments were interesting! :D i like the orange colour!!! :DDD i think its the Benedict's solution with the glucose! wanted to take picture but mrs goh dont let): weinee had to spill the "orange"! ): my aiai! then i baotoh her. but neh succeed lololl. mrs goh sometimes very cute haha:D i guess i started this "wash hands then wipe it on a friend's blouse" thing in the lab. ahahha. i always wipe on kaining. then just now i wipe on iris and natalie also ahahhaah.

recess we at canteen eat la. the fking loy dont let us at round table what. so we saw yuanpu there. and he was talking so loudly that we had to keep looking there frequently. veh irritating. he's an attention-seeker. so i was using my china accent and shouting at him things, but he dint hear. his ears are clogged up with fats thats why. the girls keep laughing hahaha. but eventually i saw him beside the canteen. so i told him to bi zui. yuan da pu. yuan dua pu. yuan pu DA ren. DA as in big-sized LOL. yo mama yuanpu so fat. gee. i feel so guily now.. NOT.