just the plain old me.

ahem. if youre reading this, please read it with AN OPEN MIND (i don't care if your brains fall out or what). i know youre bias against me or smth. but please understand that yst i go tightening right (some more put elastics lor), teeth&gums damn pain and constricted. SO, i today never go band exchange because i go also extra. cos cannot play. then if i cannot play, that makes the band look stupid cos theres a player cannot play. so might as well dont go la. i know you sure scold me and say thats not an excuse or w/e. but if you try braces tightening and elasticing(?), you can die lor. is damn damn excruiciatised(?) pain and you cant eat properly. PLEASE, you cant even brush normally. pressure on your teeth and you'll tear (ok, maybe not so exaggerated), needless to say put a damn mouthpiece into your mouth and for like 2 hours playing running notes on your pieces, WITH the reed vibrating. can die lor. but anyhow, i'm just trying to make my point. you dont believe me, nvm. you guys wanna gang up against me, that's also fine. i dont give a fuck, k?

yst went ndc. tightening (as usual) &i changed my brackets colour to black&yellow (alt). dent. gave me a packet of condoms elastics and it cost only 80cents. HAHAHA. inside easily 50 la. will post the pic of it soon. oh, &fk the elastics laaa. how the fk you hook one? i dont have their instruments, and dent. bluntly told me to use my fingers. -_- you think i have eyes inside my mouth? how to see my molar teeth the hook?! siao or what? then tyco meh? can meh? and the hook at the canine is like diao lor. so small and with my fat clumsy fingers, how to hook?! so i anyhow hook at the other not supposed to hook the hook (k whatever). and she say must change daily. but i brush two times a day leh. that means what? i have to remove it and brush before putting back? that's omg gross can? not forgetting the elastics are damn extra and causing excruiciating pain to my teeth. SIGHHH~.

went j8 after maths supp today to eat breakfast. then buy andrew's birthday present. we went mac to eat. i can't eat cos of my hawhaw tightening. _l_ i went mos to buy milkshake instead. ): poor me hor? then go damn lots of places to choose a present for andrew. bags, shirts, soccer balls, ties, toys etc.. i think the ball's the best buy. x) in the end, natalie had to go home for tuition and i went home with her loh. 57-ed home.

i dont know whats wrong with the world. why is everyone judging others by their looks. natalie &i debate until quarrel qi lai. haiz. but only a while, during supp. i think everyone should be equal cos not everyone is good-looking. then that means what? we have to organise a genocide is it? &srsly, effort is the most important virtue, it truimphs over good looks. because like say e.g: you score 97 marks for your maths exam paper. you got that marks because you study right? is not like you paste your pretty photo on the paper and the marker see you so good-looking then give you a high grade. no right? then another analogy: a good-looking ITE-graduatestudent wants to work at some high-class business company. then okay la, since the boss (is a he) see the student (she) so pretty, so let her have the opportunity to work there. but months later, he found out that she is lazy, not responsible, not punctual, not serious and stuff, he still have to fire her in the end. so what about good looks? it only gives you the opportunity. but what comes after that, is all based on hard work. ya, but relationships are different. most of us will choose a handsome guy to an ugly one. it's just nature. first impression, you see. i'm trying hard (like i mentioned before) not to judge/criticise/ prejudice people by their looks. haizz. btw, the above two examples are taken from 'The Arena'. tyty. :l
another thing issss... copycats. what the hell is wrong with copying? as i said, if you dont copy, how do you learn how to talk? obviously by copying your mother talk la. like she will say "ma.. ma" slowly and pronounce it carefully. then you will innocently mimmick "mama" as well. so it's bout copying. &if everyone never copy at all, how do trends come about? trends will probably never exist. people copy the trend-starter then the trend gets popular and well-known. it-is-all-about-copying. so what the fuck is wrong with copying, again i ask. i know la, IP right? pls loh. the trend-starter also never say to everyone "if you want to copy my shoes (example), you have to put a copyright on them" or smth. no right? so pls, who cares bout IP la. a bit thing i do only, "OI, COPYCAT!!!!! OI DONT COPY LAAA!" aye damn kb lor. i say some unusual phrase and people start dissing at me. fuck, man. i started using this handwriting later than her, and she accuse me of copying. that is why i so hatehatehtahetahate people accusing me. fuck them off. what in the world makes her think i copy HER? and not other people? i want to buy this certain object, and she would warn my that so-and-so have this thing too (but not exactly the same thing). so everyone will imply that i'm copying. COOL -_- come on, just because of copying, i can't get something i want. don't assume i stand up for copycats because i myself don't call others copycats. i do. but only to those i know will "er ren xian gao zhuang/han xue pen ren". means like if you know you copy or i do/say/whatever earlier than you, then you will quickly call me copycat so that i cannot call you that kind of person. i find very shameless la. but whatever. and another thing, what is wrong with having guitar classes? she told me is damn act lor. please la, liddat also call act. i am so vexed now, because of these three never-ending processes of life that i have to face now and then. D:

can someone ton at my house? or i'll ton at yours. i'm soso bored. terry, you whole life long see first see first. you see very long hor? now also never give me an answer. hai, forget it.

MY COM TIO VIRUS AGAINNNNNN. DADDY, WHERE ARE YOU? ):

{editted} srsly, i think we all people should possess this virtue called "internal locus of control". because of this not-so-popular virtue have i become a better person (more or less). this virtue is about 'blaming' yourself when anything happens, and not 'blaming' others, be it good or bad. if you score 97/100 for your maths paper, you don't say is your tuition teacher that made you score. but of course, you credit your tuition teacher. without her, you probably wouldnt get such a distinction. similarly, if you get a miserable 10/100 for your hist. paper, you don't push all the blame to your hist. teacher, saying that he doesnt know how to teach and stuff. we should instead do some self-reflection and be enlightened. next thing to do is to cram! hoping to do better in the next paper. hahaha. :p giving a situation, say.. e.g: i have a locker in school. i share it with my best friend (of course she pay her share). one day, i help my friend take out her science textbook because later on there's science lessons. she was talking to another friend while i passed the book to her hand. she took it absent-mindedly. and before going off to lessons (that was after recess), she realised she doesnt have her science textbook with her. she asked me and i told her i help her take out and give her already. she starts blaming me like, "you shouldnt have help me take lor", "all your fault la". and then she expects me to give her my book to replace her lost one. WTF can?! i gave you your book, is not like i put on the table or what. i passed it from MY HANDS to YOUR HANDS. after it reaches your hands, it is none of my business already. &is like hao xin mei hao bao lor. help you take still tio blame for it. k la, next time dont be so busybody help you take le. this is why i think we should all have internal locus of control so that we can avoid such situations and then end ourselves up in quarrels. back to the topic, we dont 'blame' jesus when something good happens to us. (fk, tell me whats the positive of blame please *rolls eyes*). someone actually told me that if jesus is not with us, the world will not get jobs. everything, is the effect of one cause. and the only cause is jesus. hello? some proof and evidence, maybe? you get that particular job because you study hard in school, got a cert./degree and you qualify for the job. not what jesus' humble doing. -_- neither do we blame evil spirits, satan, blabla for the bad things that happen to us. JUST REMEMBER: ME ME ME, I AM TO BE BLAMED AND 'BLAMED' (until i find whats the positive of blame will the apostrophes be gone)

tightenings SUCKSSS. onoz, my whole mouth hurts. damn.. someone get me liquidized(?) food (must be tasty hor. best is abalone and shark's fin) cos the moment my teeth make contact with food, it will hurt a lot. same with biting together my teeth, brushing. havent i mentioned that already? o_o