just the plain old me.

happy 41st birthday, singapore! we got a celebration on today. i still blur blur thought today no school lol. my jeans sucks man. sorry. i mean my waist sucks. i'm fat yes. so cannot zip fully. anwayz, band needa perform in the hall. first item o.o we played the same as on friday. i no have stage fright. i forgot alot of the gimmicks but who cares. no one was even looking at me. after performing, we sat behind the hall to watch the rest of the performance. choir, so long. natalie was so damn short lor. she's probably the shortest. she like sian sian anyhow do. hweehong so act sexy. ;l after that, we helped carry the percussion instruments back. fallin that time, the fucking majors call us tuck in. i cannot tuck in the front cos the zip thing. and they don't understand. they call me go toilet and tuck in. whatever. so i go lor. i took my time and when i come out, fall out liao. yes! i hate teresa. some more she from khengcheng sia. she always attitude lor. like tigeress like that. siaoz one. she's the most suitable to be drum major. the majors keep picking on me. breathing exercise also. i must until so action and bai chi then they will accept. so bitchy. whatever lor. the whole row of bitches, curse you all. my mother also bias. she buy bag for lynnette only, nvm. she packet food back for lynnette only, nvm. but she buy the shorts in lynnette and her sizes only, i canot take it. since she so love lynnette, i say again, lynnette will take care of her when she's old lor. i won't give a damn since i'm not considered her daughter. but i still need her to take me to ndc for braces. i shall have my revenge... later in life:D went j8 alone after school. sembawang got sell ins2 dvd! $26.90 poh kim sell more expensive. $29.90. i'm still considering whether to buy cd or bag. bag would be more worth ba? (: i wanna go j8 with natalie tomorrow lei. go look at the bag:D and probably buy it. i still got friends like natalie, hweehong, artika, fazlina, kaining, priscilla and karen. they don't hate me. i'll cherish them. friends forever...

another thing... to christians... do you guys actually believe in jesus? i'm not trying to be unfaithful or smth. it's just some kind of phychological thinking that jesus doesn't exists. heaven doesn't exists. nor did jesus ever answered our prayers. i believe that if you die, the world will be darkness, silence. a sense of fear but you can't make a single noise. see nothing, hear nothing, taste nothing and probably feel nothing. that's... scary kay. the point is: you ain't gonna land in heaven with a golden halo above your head enjoying your angel life. uh-uh. it's not like those fairytale stories you know. and why do you guys say that jesus answered our prayers when something you prayed for happens? and when it doesn't happen, you guys say jesus just find the time not ripe. why not say that jesus forgot to answer or he went to answer to nature's call or he hates me thats why he refuses to answer my prayers. i believe it's just coincidence. example: you pray for the teacher not to collect the workbooks because you forgot to do. and when she really doesn't, you thinks is jesus' humble doing. it could be she forgot or she got her reasons. that's just a simple situation. no offence lol. i lost my train of thoughts because my bloody father is singing karaokae like a crow. :P yay tomorrow holiday! yay! and, congrats milubing for winning superband! it was a close shave between milubing and my darling soul! anywayz, jiayou! looking forward to their albums yup! also, support rahimah and jonathan in singapore idol okay? both have singing potential. ima is way way cute kay! >:D